中中故事 // eugie'story

2012-01-09T15:07:00.001-05:00

When I was invited to give this speech, I was asked if I could give a simple short talk that was “direct, naked, taut, honest, passionate, lean, shivering, startling, and graceful.” No pressure there. Let’s begin with the startling part. Class of 2009: you are going to have to figure out what it means to be a human being on earth at a time when every living system is declining, and the rate of

2011-09-09T14:06:00.000-04:00

"A concentrated power source that can be stored allows social and political power to concentrate in the hands of those who control it."

2011-07-17T18:45:00.001-04:00

You know that kind of happiness that comes from deep within? The kind that keeps you smiling long after the muscles on your face have retracted? The kind that feels like a pulse of energy flowing through you as though your hair is standing up? Well you might not have those same reactions, but I know you know what I mean. I know.I get this way when I experience dance. As I watch people move,

2011-07-01T01:11:00.000-04:00

Dear friend, as you knowYour flowers are withering Your mother's gone insaneYour leaves have drifted awayBut the clouds are clearing upAnd I've come revelingBurning incandescentlyLike a bastard on the burning seaYou're just like your fatherBuried deep under the waterYou're resting on your laurelsAnd stepping on my toesWhose side are you on?What side is this anyway?Put down your sword and

2011-03-31T12:39:00.001-04:00

Compassion. That is what I miss and crave for.

2010-12-18T21:42:00.002-05:00

context = recognition of uniqueness + in-depth analysistruth = (context + further analysis + residual intuition)3

2010-11-30T19:01:00.004-05:00

I was feeling really down as I was driving home today. I somehow remembered the time when I was watching the Beatles Anthology with Joshua. I was particularly depressed at the time too and I remember watching the Anthology made me feel alive again. Here are these 4 guys from Liverpool who enjoyed making, playing music. They just enjoyed their time together and loved all of it. All the while,

2010-11-18T08:22:00.000-05:00

You just gotta ignite the lightAnd let it shineJust own the nightLike the Fourth of JulyCause baby you're a fireworkCome on show 'em what your worthMake 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"As you shoot across the sky-y-yBaby you're a fireworkCome on let your colors burstMake 'em go "Oh, oh, oh!"You're gunna leave 'em fallin' down-own-own

2010-11-14T08:27:00.003-05:00

No one is perfect all the time. In fact, probably no one is perfect. But I'd like to naively think that things are possible with practice, with time and most importantly, with heart. Perhaps that is my worldview; generosity and giving means it is done out of love, out of a completedness. That's what I would consider "perfect."

2010-10-11T21:13:00.005-04:00

I go to Chapters quite often. It's a place of refuge for me when I feel lonely or have time to kill before I have an appointment. I use to go there during my lunch hour, but now just after work. Many times I just sit there, on vacant chairs or on the floor. I make a mental note of the good ones that I want to purchase online later. Usually I forget. There are just too many good books.

2010-09-23T08:51:00.004-04:00

I've always believed and loved film. I fell in love with photography in high school , ruminating in the dark room over the perfect print. When I graduated to University, I fell in love with the city and also the Toronto International Film Festival. "Films" embody and intersect all the areas of my interest: the spiritual, transcendence, transformation, perspective, beauty, light, culture,

2010-09-11T11:46:00.002-04:00

I go through what I would characterize as "film binges". I watch one good film, then I cannot get enough of them and I would start collecting them to watch over hours, days and weeks. This current binge arrives aptly; TIFF is in town. See you among the stars.A film you should watch is "The Boys are Back". I like what it says, though I question how realistic it is. Still, a glorious movie.

2010-09-02T01:23:00.000-04:00

Where the doors are moaning all day long,Where the stairs are leaning dusk 'till dawn,Where the windows are breathing in the light,Where the rooms are a collection of our lives,This is a place where I don't feel aloneThis is a place that I call my home~Patrick Wilson

2010-08-26T12:36:00.001-04:00

Sweet dispositionNever too soonOh reckless abandon,Like no one's watching youA moment, a loveA dream, a laughA kiss, a cryOur rights, our wrongsA moment, a loveA dream, a laughA moment, a loveA dream, a laughJust stay thereCause I'll be comin' overWhile our bloods still youngIt's so young, it runsWon't stop til it's overWon't stop to you surrenderSongs of desperationI played them for youA moment,

2010-08-23T04:19:00.001-04:00

"Money is simply a collective mental construct that we can redesign from first principles to reflect energetic realities and ethical values." ~D. Holmgren

2010-08-15T18:39:00.006-04:00

What fascinates me? Invariably that differs from what I am consumed with most of the time. I want affection, but what fascinates me is human-ness. Humanity. That's what fascinates me. Like I said, I'm interested in humans. Our collective human-ness. This is an infinite fountain of fascination. It comes with my desire to positively influence and engage in activities that will bring about

2010-08-02T07:32:00.003-04:00

We are entrenched in a world of values foresee and unseen. These ties bind us to how we think, what we do, how we must behave on a conscious and subconscious level. I've seen the powers of entrainment have an incredible effect.That's why we feel empowered when we travel; perhaps even a desire to live "there". We start fitting in, we start to feel like we are a part of the place. My thesis is

2010-07-25T17:26:00.001-04:00

The truly creative mind in any field is no more than this: A human creature born abnormally, inhumanly sensitive. To him… A touch is a blow, A sound is a noise, A misfortune is a tragedy, A joy is an ecstasy, A friend is a lover, A lover is a god, And failure is death. Add to this cruelly delicate organism the overpowering necessity to create, create, create… So that

2010-07-16T01:08:00.002-04:00

in all the search, in all the cosmosfinding this one inkling of a dream from a pond of never-ending flowtalking about lovelike warmth during the winter monthsit exists in the crispness in the airbreathe easy, breathe cleana fullness, a raw realnessthis dream, this destinationthe music is playing from all surroundexcitement, or is it just hormonesyes, a piano, some stringsthere is a point of no

2010-07-03T21:52:00.003-04:00

It feels like I've gone one full circle. Looking back, everything seems like it was going to fall apart. I don't think we change, but we just grow our roots more, stretch further, deeper. At the end of the day though, it just depends on what you want.Thank you.

2010-06-26T09:12:00.004-04:00

another thing i love: shugo tokumaru. god, how i enjoyed his album EXIT last year and still continue to do so. a testament to how great an album is when i listen to more than 5 tracks over and over again. 'wedding' is a consistent regular on my playlist. i dunno why, it's the slowness leading up to the complex brilliance that is the climax that i really enjoy. god i love EXIT.i'm listening

2010-06-21T21:19:00.005-04:00

i always want to help people. and the only way i found in all my research is to lend a hand. in this case lend 25 bucks. lend to people who in turn make money to take care of themselves and loved ones.KivaVittana

2010-01-27T01:16:00.004-05:00

Few things lends themselves to be catalysts of journal/blog writing. Traditionally for me these have been: quiet places, inspirational music, after having read other equally expressive written works, being an insomniac (whether by choice or not), and lastly and frankly mild depression. Hopefully if the stars are aligned, more than one of these conditions present themselves during the incubation

2010-01-16T18:11:00.000-05:00

i'm addicted to thinking. how to translate that into practice is probably best approached by doing. i'm working on being better at that.

2010-01-04T05:51:00.002-05:00

I woke up in the middle of the night, not something that often happens without reason. I take it as a sign to write my thoughts down since my mind is racing. I'm hoping that by jotting it down can I stop thinking it, or feeling it.First, I had a probably one of the best Christmas season I ever had. It was never planned explicitly that way, but it just worked out that the combination of the

2009-12-31T15:00:00.002-05:00

"If you remember one thing it might as well be that you can always turn inward and find that spark that has been lit forever."

2009-12-09T21:44:00.003-05:00

Continuing on the last entry about being grateful, I am especially grateful of the fact that I got to travel to so many cities this calendar year. I had the opportunity of going to Montreal, the District of Columbia, New York, Lyon, San Francisco, Paris, Hong Kong, Shanghai, San Jose (Costa Rica) and of course, Toronto. This is by no means a way for me to publicize my good fortunes by rubbing

2009-12-06T18:49:00.002-05:00

First of all: thank you. Sometimes I get caught up and forget how blessed I am. This feeling usually coincides with feeling of having enough. And enough is something that I have in spades. This year has been a momentous year in self-discovery. Discovery of who I am and discovery of what is possible. Or maybe just celebrating who I really am and acknowledging it so that I am able to maximize

2009-10-06T23:36:00.002-04:00

I don't feel like I'm being particularly lyrical today, which some days I am. Or maybe it's just that my expectations of writing entries are lower today. Or maybe I feel like I should write an entry about my trip to France before it slips from me for good.To think that I was in Paris one week ago is actually a little frightening to me. Part of the reason is because it doesn't take that long

2009-10-06T23:12:00.002-04:00

This is not an entry about San Francisco, even though this is the sixth time I've been here in these last couple years. But on my way to San Francisco, I had a layover in Vancouver. For some reason this layover is 4 hours long.I think I made a secret, quiet pact with myself that use my downtime to go downtown. Even though I didn't know how to get into town before I arrived, I just literally

2009-07-13T15:03:00.000-04:00

I don't necessarily feel like all my energy has gone to waste, but sometimes I do think that my energy could be used more efficiently. The trouble is, most of the time, I have a hard time grasping or at least gauging what constitutes as a worthy contribution. Perhaps, I perceive that what I can "do" with my energy is always and everywhere misused because of my circumstances. In all likelihood

2009-07-06T14:08:00.001-04:00

I keep saying to people that I read so many things. It's true. Generally true. Though, over the years, the type of reading I do and how I conduct it has changed. For school it was a strategic type of reading. In the last couple of years, partly because it has been 100% for leisure, I read a lot. While not all the things I read are quality material, it is no less entertaining to me.I reckon,

2009-06-18T16:57:00.000-04:00

(This is going to be poorly constructed piece, so bare with me. All these ideas floating around in my head, I need to get them out.)Every since I could remember, I've been fascinated with societal constructs. As I've mentioned, I love Star Trek. And looking back, I secretly know why I've always loved it. It's for the same reasons that I loved to dream about a world where I could use and see

2009-05-06T15:11:00.003-04:00

Calgary was not what I expected. It is bold, new, young, sunny, livable and town-ish. I only stopped by for 3.5 days, and I have at least 20 distinct stories to tell. (All of them worth telling.)By the way, this wouldn't have been possible without Faye or the incredibly generous temperment that mother nature bestowed on us just in time for my arrival. (I had heard that it was snowing the

2009-04-27T15:14:00.001-04:00

Growing up, Star Trek was my only television companion. It was the only show I'd watched faithfully through its five incarnations. I remember that I longed to be like a Vulcan; to possess superior mental skill as to mask the brooding volcanic emotions just below the conscious mind. Thinking back, maybe I took it literally because I grew up to be just like that. I even remember confessing to

2009-04-21T11:18:00.003-04:00

dearest j,hoping your meeting went well!!!!you know it occurred to me how much you are like me, or some part of me. i also have trouble accepting western conventional medicine, especially when i first read up on and discovered how "bad" they can be to our natural systems. i know, because for a long while, i was so opposed to destroying the natural flora and fauna of our intestinal linings by

2009-04-14T16:12:00.003-04:00

I once said that I regret that I am not more eloquent. What I really meant to say is that, I wish there was a way I can be more coherent verbally and on paper. There is so much going on inside me that I can't even manifest clearly into words sometimes; most of the time, it's downright impossible. The irony is that I enjoy writing. It is, among the communication styles, the one that I feel is

2009-03-26T16:54:00.005-04:00

Speaking about life experiences, I feel I've had many regrets that I wish I can take back. I revisit them from time to time, only conveniently remembering how relatively good it was back then. If only I was in that enviable situation again. In hindsight, it's always better. I'm always my own Monday Morning Quarterback.I keep telling people that if there is one thing that would put me at

2009-03-17T16:39:00.002-04:00

In my last entry, I was telling you about all these things that I get involved with. This entry is about one such example that fits that criteria of being "cloaked in controversy, misinformation and highly complex" and pervades all that I am interested in.I've always had this fascination with life and death. It really fits the criteria above, I suppose. And like the other topics, I keep digging

2009-03-11T14:13:00.001-04:00

Sometimes it takes someone else's writing to draw upon what I want to write myself. I'd like to think I'm not plagiarizing; in all likelihood I'm not. I just need something to jump start my brain juices or nerve fibers to start firing in that direction.It's also very satisfying to know that there is someone out there who actually understands. The incredible confusion that is going on

2009-02-24T13:35:00.000-05:00

Two steps forward, three steps back.I always knew it didn't proceed in a linear fashion. Then again, things happen in the way that they always happen: mysteriously. Looking back at these last two months, I feel as though I've learned and grown so much. I feel like I've lived a lifetime, and if nothing else, gained more experience. I mentioned this before that I was gently reminded that I am

2009-02-10T22:10:00.002-05:00

You know, I was smart enough to know that I was very smart when I was in high school. Insightful. More receptive to the unspoken strings of life's more precious whispers. Likewise, looking back on my university days, I can't help but imagine what I knew then. Looking at this poem/song/whatever that I wrote, it seems like I understood it quite well. I'm surprised that I even spotted it back

2009-02-09T14:11:00.003-05:00

You'll think I'm crazy. I know. You probably already do. I've always loved colours. Yes, you heard me. Colours. I love colours. I've always felt that colours conveyed so much meaning, without ever having to be cocky about it. They just are the way they are and communicate whatever they need to communicate. When used as paint on walls, it changes the mood of the room. When you wear it,

2009-02-06T08:34:00.002-05:00

You want to know one of my absolutely favourite moments. Here it is: I like it when people are sleeping around me. I've always imagined someone falling asleep in my arms and I'd just watch them dose off. You don't need me to tell you that there is something very vulnerable, serene about it all. It's so cute, cuddly when I can be comfortable enough for that person to fall asleep in my presence.

2009-01-28T16:20:00.002-05:00

i want hugs and kisses.i need hugs and kisses.i want hugs and kisses.

2009-01-26T16:37:00.002-05:00

This weekend was rather interesting. It'll take me a long while before I process all that went on and be able to fit it into something coherent for me to understand and tell. However, one thing is clear: things only happen when you are ready for them.

2009-01-17T08:50:00.001-05:00

"Dear Lord and Father of mankind, Forgive our foolish ways! Reclothe us in our rightful mind, In purer lives Thy service find, In deeper reverence, praise. In simple trust like theirs who heard Beside the Syrian sea The gracious calling of the Lord, Let us, like them, without a word Rise up and follow Thee. O Sabbath rest by Galilee! O calm of hills above,

2009-01-13T15:21:00.001-05:00

I am but a man. I have a body, but I also have a mind and a soul to contend with, sometimes each with their own desires. I think I have been gently reminded that I am but a man. And that I am a body too. A body with both mammalian and reptilian parts. A body that, for a lack of a better word, has a mind of its own. But, it is in times like these, times that the body is dominant, that I am

2009-01-08T12:06:00.002-05:00

I've had so many bloggable topics that have come to me lately. Many more than I usually have. But the one that reoccurs the most in my head is one in which I think about authenticity. What makes something authentic? What is real? What is unreal? And how do we go about discovering those? How do we know true authenticity?The truth is: I don't know. And as much as I like to think that I have

2008-12-30T14:30:00.001-05:00

I wish I can always be eloquent. It seems to be touch and go sometimes; one day I can find the right combination of words to convey my feelings very well, and some days are just crappy for that kind of exercise. So I try to jot things down when I know what it is I'm saying. The problem is, those days that I write well, I may not want to jot things down. Looking back, there are many times I

2008-12-12T16:57:00.002-05:00

If I can just use one word to sum up what makes me happy, it would be this word: bohemian. Don't ask me why. Well you could try to ask me why. I was just about to write about why though. But now that I'm thinking about you asking me in person, I'd rather save it for a face to face conversation.So I won't go into why. I'll do something even better. I'll describe how it makes me feel and what

2008-12-10T17:06:00.003-05:00

Reading some old emails, I realize how well I write. This is not a boastful comment; just surprised to see that I CAN write well, at times. But a more important discovery is that sometimes I may forget my feelings toward something in the passage of time. While it is difficult for me to forget instances of facts or figures, it is in fact possible for me to forget my feelings at a particular

2008-12-09T11:50:00.001-05:00

This makes no immediate sense, but I really really love Kanye West's new album: 808s and Heartbreak. I love that groove. I've noticed even when I was younger, I love so-called 'modern' music accompanied by orchestral instruments. I love that sound. I find it adds so much to the music.

2008-11-27T15:20:00.004-05:00

i can't seem to get back to the way i use to be. then again, why i am so eager to get back there; it wasn't like it was all that fun. but at the same time, i don't know where i am going. i feel like the cream between the two oreo black parts.but what i have learned in these past years has made me who i am. the ideas that i keep going back to that resonate with me seem to be the only things

2008-11-13T16:33:00.001-05:00

Honesty. I want to show myself to the world. I once believed everything was possible. Now, I need to surrender.

2008-11-12T09:04:00.003-05:00

Right about now, I wished I had the drive to do what I once did: write poems. It doesn't matter. People won't read them. I won't read them either. Frankly, they never truly made sense anyway, and I wasn't very good at it. But it did serve its purpose; it did give me a sense that I was at least creating something out of my feelings. That it wasn't all for nought that I feel this way.If I am

2008-10-28T13:18:00.001-04:00

When I was in Thailand, I experienced a simpler time. When I say simple I don't mean, having a simple life. It's more complex to explain, which seems like a oxymoron for something I just described as simple. That's probably why I don't bother with explaining it; I will attempt to below.I don't think I've ever really mentioned this before, but I think partly why I have never really talked about

2008-10-08T13:30:00.002-04:00

The most trying thing to do once you've come back from your travels is to not tarnish the memory in vain. We travel to learn, to experience other cultures and ultimately learn about ourselves. You come back a little different because you've had a chance to see your own "life" from a distance. And if you're lucky enough, you can see and feel how other people live in their natural discourse,

2008-09-23T14:03:00.000-04:00

It's a fact of life and of human nature that we want things that we don't have. I remember vaguely people quoting variations of that me to when I was younger. There is always something left to be wished. Once you've plateaued, you seek higher ground. Physiologically, it actually makes sense. This may or may not be entirely scientific, so bare with me. Our bodies made up of individual cells

2008-09-10T15:34:00.004-04:00

I find that wherever I go I try to understand how people live. And if there is one thing I really wouldn't mind doing all day and all night is to understand that. I would want to know how they have lived, where do they come from. I am unsure why that intrigues me so darn much.I'm not always in this kind of mood. Some days I'm more receptive to this kind of inquisition. Other days, I'm more

2008-09-05T14:54:00.002-04:00

Apparently blogging is out. Shorter forms are in. And while I think that's pretty cool from time to time, I miss being able to just sit there and write. It's true what people have said; that it isn't the same anymore. Blogging has become a nuisance; it takes time to write something and to edit for just the right stuff. It has to have a point, yet it also needs to deliver some kind of concise

2008-03-30T17:47:00.002-04:00

I've had the luxury of reading a lot of neat books lately. Since the summer I've been able to polish off books. Lately I've been infatuated with anything about economics. There is no shortage of articles online discussing their opinions about the latest confusion happening in the markets.Generally, my favourite books at Chapters reside in the section Culture and Community. Or some variation

2008-03-26T09:29:00.002-04:00

I've not been faithful to this blog for a while now. For the longest time I didn't feel like writing anything. The reason I didn't feel like writing on here was because I felt a little confined. On the one hand I have too many sporatic thoughts to put down and on the other hand I have this desire to publish something that was refined for the reading audience. And for the longest time I would

2008-01-25T13:09:00.000-05:00

Like the phoenix in the sun, I feel like I am on fire!

2007-09-06T09:30:00.000-04:00

i think that this has been a tremendous journey. i'm not describing some fancy notion of my fight for something good, or my depths through traumatic experiences and how i can leverage that to the places where i am now. in the past little while (and i'm not entirely sure when it started) i started believing. doing what i wanted to do. and i believe that that is possible, for everyone. the

2007-06-15T20:20:00.000-04:00

Right now I´m in Buenos Aires. I have a couple days to go before I´m back in Toronto. I´ve always wanted to go to South America and here I am, here I´ve been. It´s been challenging, rewarding and unforgetable. Learning a new language, eating new foods I´ve never dreamed that can be served on a dish, and living here with South Americans. So many breathtaking scenary and stories to tell. I

2007-04-24T23:33:00.000-04:00

This is the longest time since I've not written on my site. Wow. Well, it's the longest time that I've been on a hiatus from reading and writing on blogs since the start of university, when all this writing on-line began. I've been itching to write something today and rightly so; the weather is as good as ever and also like many other people, a chapter has come to an end. For me, I have always

2007-02-14T12:39:00.000-05:00

I have a night class on Tuesdays and I really enjoy the walk home. My class is right by the ROM and I walk to the Annex, where I live. Inside these streets, there is a park, which I walk through to and from school everyday. It was two weeks ago that they started to build a skating rink where the grass was before and when I come home I see people playing hockey, skating around. Yesterday, it

2007-02-04T22:54:00.000-05:00

I'm so glad I took time off during my Christmas break. I'm so glad that Katherine encouraged me to join them on our Quebec Trip for four days; I had a really really great time, lots of laughter and moments of real adventure. Adventure. It was adventurous in more ways than one. It reminds me of our camping trip to Algonquin. There is something about road trips that are so enjoyable. You are

2006-11-12T19:06:00.000-05:00

I love you, too :)

2006-10-31T01:00:00.000-05:00

"You've just told me some high spots in your memories. Want to hear mine? They're all connected with the sea ... I became drunk with the beauty and singing rhythm of it, and for a moment I lost myself -- actually lost my life. I was set free! I dissolved in the sea, became white sails and flying spray, became beauty and rhythm, became moonlight and the ship and the high dim-starred sky! I

2006-09-16T23:55:00.000-04:00

UnreposedWaitingWaiting, why not let's just talkAbout life and death, and everything under the sunOnly don't be fashionally late, try not to make it arrangedAren't we ridiculous? Is it even possible?Falling in love with a hand and a shadowEven still, I'd run to youRun to you in a heart's beatMr. Happy, Dear Mister Unmoved,Mister anything but gluedCome to me like a thief in the nightAnd I'll keep

2006-09-04T20:00:00.000-04:00

Walter's place was pretty close to downtown in this really European apartment full with the balcony and stairs on the outside. He was a gracious host.The food of course is amazing; taking advise from a co-worker friend of mine that told us to go to Schwartz's. Awesome smoked meat. The best. Extra-fatty. Fries and big dill pickle. First time I had Cott's black cherry pop.Walter's cat woke me

2006-08-24T17:42:00.000-04:00

in black and white dressthe veil of great illusionsweet daises remain~ a haiku ~

2006-08-09T10:34:00.000-04:00

I became memormized by the Beatles after having watched the entire Beatles Anthology. I remember it having a calming effect on me last year having been quite stressed from school and life. These are just four guys from Liverpool that loved writing and playing music, just four guys having fun.I so wanted to be having fun with companionship.I would say this is one of my favourites of which there

2006-06-27T11:08:00.000-04:00

So here we are, the next morning . This will be our first full day in Thailand. Wait, I must warn you before you go on reading. It’s going to be really long because that’s how our days were, really really long. We did so many things in one day, we saw so many things in one day. It was just ridiculous. It was like that from the beginning and it didn’t slow down even till the very end. As

2006-06-16T00:37:00.000-04:00

It isn’t without some funny sense of fate that I’m in the Narita (Tokyo Airport) again. We arrived here, we were probably the first flight here. There was no one around and the shops were not open. We lay down on these chairs made from synthetic leather, the not very breathable kind and just sleep. Sleep is not possible when you have a nasty cough and just having finished a grueling flight from

2006-05-30T09:25:00.001-04:00

Even though Japanese Airlines (JAL) was the cheapest airline that I found, it in fact turned out to be the one of the best economy class flights I have ever taken. The food was excellent, with free wine for every meal. The service as you can imagine was immaculate: clean, efficient and frequent. Maybe because it's been a while since I've taken a cross-ocean flight, but there were some nifty

2006-05-30T09:25:00.000-04:00

2006-05-22T10:32:00.000-04:00

I'm just making a quick stop to blog here in this small, cute little town called Kanchanaburi.It's hard to put into words just the amount of stuff that I've did in the last 3 days. So much more than I would have done at home. Even though the pace is much slower here. It's quite hot, but I like it. And as you can tell, days of not hearing english and this sweltering heat has made my grammer

2006-05-02T12:13:00.000-04:00

He just couldn’t bare the weight of it all. It wasn’t that it was his first day on the job, but all of a sudden he connected the dots and it collapsed under itself. Lying face down on his bed, he reached for his favourite pillow. Tears slowly trickled down and stained the linens. Splotches.Why was he crying? I’m sure he didn’t have a clear, concise answer either. The wave of emotion just

2006-04-17T14:48:00.000-04:00

I had such a great time at El-Convento Rico. Such a great time! I haven't felt that good in a while. The combination of lights, that funky vibe and the alcohol made me let loose and be in the moment. The music was fun, the people were fun, and I didn't feel like I was a complete freak there which made it that much more fun. Mind you, I'm not the greatest dancer, the most elegant or the most

2006-04-10T12:48:00.000-04:00

The brain is like a violin. Tugging on different strings triggers a different sound, a different memory. Playing the brain is to pluck on the five senses.Knowing this is one thing, however. Experiencing it is a whole different matter. It’s kind of like someone forcing you to drink an unknown substance with your eyes closed. You don’t know it yet, but it is actually freshly squeezed lemons.

2006-04-06T12:56:00.000-04:00

Choosing something to write is such a heavy task. When my creative juices get churning, I want to write five entries, each with its own style of prose. Sometimes poetry. Sometimes not. I feel like the words themselves should reflect what it is that I'm conveying and that the sentences themselves not only serve function but also form. There are times I prefer to write a list in the absense of

2006-03-10T09:05:00.000-05:00

I saw a hawk up close the other day.Glided slowly across the sky, made a loop around.Swiftly descended and disappeared in a field of yellow meadow.Clutched something gray on it's beak and flighted away.The hawk made it seem effortless.And it was.

2006-03-06T11:37:00.000-05:00

I think there really is no use in talking about things. Most of the things that goes on in my mind on any given day is mostly garbage; a pile of space junk that just needs to be ejected far, far away. Most of the time, I'm just thinking because I can, other times it is spent on arguing with myself, bouncing around theories in my head and judging which one makes more sense at the time. I'm a

2006-02-23T09:56:00.000-05:00

I wake up to CBC Radio One (FM 99.1 if you are in Toronto) and also when I am commuting. I find it informative and insightful, which is more than I can say for most other radio stations whose hourly news consists of repeating the same 2 pieces of 'news' of what I would generalize as 'Victimization'. Yes, with a captial V. I'm digressing. Radio One recently held a Poetry Face-Off in Toronto and

2006-02-08T22:40:00.000-05:00

Recent movies I have watched, in entirety or partially, that you must watch in no particular packing order. All these movies have Canadians behind and/or in the scenes. - Bollywood/Hollywood- kardia- Crash- Transamerica- Lunch with Charles

2006-01-25T21:01:00.000-05:00

I forgot which person’s blog I read, but I agree with him totally. Reading other people’s blogs inspires me to write something of similar calibre. It reminds me that I can write too and that it is an inexpensive medium to reflect, ponder and allow others to read into my daily life. Whereas, one can always express himself or herself through the playing of music, the act of dance, or the

2006-01-18T15:25:00.000-05:00

I found myself bound to reading those tiny captions, ready to absorb any information that the text would index on the specimens. I was hoping that they would somehow reveal savvy details of grand design; praying that the exhibit would somehow be filled with foul smells; wishing that it would cause a moment of flabbergast-ness. Half-expectedly, I wanted to know who those people are. Or who those

2006-01-13T15:33:00.000-05:00

The room seemed to enlarge at first. Or was that just in retrospect? Suddenly there descended this big plume, it came out of thin air. It rose up and took me by surprise.I suppose I wasn’t really that surprised as I was not myself. Certainly, the two arms that were attached to my torso seemed to function independently like a puppet’s. Yes, that’s it. My Mind was separated from my Body. My Mind

2006-01-10T10:31:00.000-05:00

MomentsDo you ever feel that time stands still while other times it goes by so quickly?Perhaps because at my age, I am reminded by things of the past, things that have been locked up for a long time. Some things I remember deeply, in my head and in my heart. I will never forget - at least I will remember that I have forgotten.Time stands still when I look at this picture, a picture with the two

2005-12-12T21:20:00.000-05:00

Mother-In-LawRight now, she looks tired. She is resting all the time.She is still well-kept. Same make-up on her face; the same colours when I met her the first time. It was dinner at Max's House, I remember.Now, two decades and seven-thousand miles later, she still uses that tone of rouge. Maybe the lipstick colour has changed from an old rose to the red of Christmas flowers you see at this time

2005-12-07T12:16:00.000-05:00

The Single 'M'I was already on my way out. Might as well walk through the men's section.It was quietly sitting on one of those racks. You know, the ones strategically placed on the brim of the strolling path. You know, one of those racks that have a North-East-South-West disposition. I move toward the East to take a closer look. The colour and texture was in agreement with me, I liked it. Right

2005-11-30T22:22:00.000-05:00

Contrary to what we perceive, the world is not a bad place. There are so many irrational pieces of information out there. Pieces where people in one fleeting moment can froth in Imagination and dance with Drama. In another instance -- mingle with love and snuggle in joyousness. We, as bloggers, place too much emphasis on the events that take place in our lives. The details of our engagments

2005-11-27T08:29:00.000-05:00

Once Upon a Time in MexicoI had a great time last Saturday celebrating my birthday at Joshie-Tavvie's. He made Mexican food from scratch: slow-roasted pork. It had over 20 ingredients -- the one I remember most is the 5 freshly squeezed lemons. It was tender, intensely flavourful and filling. He also baked me a cake from scratch. (It's also so magical to someone who has no idea how to bake.) The

2005-11-18T14:56:00.000-05:00

The great thing about working for a wine company is the wine tastings. Today we had the launch of new wine.Then we had more wine at a Birthday lunch for my boss and I. Expectedly, I was a little tipsy when I went back to work. Especially when I mixed the two wines.My birthday celebrations lasted the entire week, and it's not over yet. (God, let me have my birthday wish.)Thanks to all that

2005-11-13T23:30:00.000-05:00

This Weekend Eventful.Friday night was Bowie night.Cold, running steadily. Headed to Petula's single.There was never a dull moment.Seven colours of the rainbow was the wardrobe.Singing, dancing -- a beat running throughout.Discovering history told through hats. Crowns.After, the bite of Glace.In it, a tall man posing as a woman.Next rise, wardrobe of no colour at all. All Tied up.4 + 1 dinner

2005-11-09T15:24:00.000-05:00

There was a big sale at Vaughn Mills to commemorate their first anniversary. I was particularly happy; first because I found items that I wanted that were on sale and second, those items were in the size I wanted them. We ended up going Bowling, the three of us: Wilkie, Raymond and I. Out of form, I scored over 150, but only by one pin. It was a enjoyable evening. At one point, we were neck

2005-11-06T19:34:00.000-05:00

Yesterday, I went this really great Polish restaurant on the Queensway. It looked a lot like a cottage from the inside -- so cozy, so warm. Homemade everything from the cheesecake to the crepes and the beef goulash. Besides, there was this girl there who made me laugh like crazy. It was a really fun time.After the first 3 episodes of Lost this season, I didn't particularly feel like